UPDATES on Love and Life 4.29.12

So hi, Hello! Since a friend of mine, is also starting to make her new blog account, I realized I should make an update with mine too. So yeah, I just did. HAHA XD Last post was my love story, exactly 2 years ago. Now is a different me, has different view on love and life. To cut it short, I have this new love but we're in a coma right now. Coma means we are in a process of solving some issues. But believe it or not, I'm in love. Gotta post my love story, soon if I can have the feeling of posting it. HAHA XD So this post, is all about updates, update on my life and love. UPDATES? Well, I'm in my 3rd year of Accountancy at USJ-R, I'm happy, I've got this huge problems on my family, on my love, on my studies but I know all of these will be solved by Gods will. On Love, I'm currently having my 6th and hoping to be my last boyfriend in my life. I'm not so proud of saying the number 6, but it's reality. Haha. We're going on 5 months. On Family, naaah, just boyfriend issues. Don't wanna talk about it, sahrey. On studies, I've got this problem on my major, 'm havin a hard time to reach the cut off. But we should think postive that we can do it. Smile! :) So today, I'm in my room got no things to do. Bored! And that would be all. By the way, that picture above was taken yesterday coz I've got my hair done at Urban Salon and now I'm purdoy. Damn!

 Good Bye! Till next post. Much Love < 3

This was the onLy guy that i have loved in my whole life.. unfortunateLy, ending wasn't soo good.. memories keep coming back.. :(( i know i would love him throughout the years and that's for sure!.. DRAMA! 

to summarize everything:
..it was just a 2nd sem LOVE affair..
..it was on october 24, 2009 that we've planned to make our relationship officiaL..
..after two months i've realized i should love this guy with my whole heart 'coz he let me feel my real worth and true love for me..
..but when the month of MARCH comes, he acts so coLd, he isn't the same from yesterday, i thought it was just an ordinary misunderstanding but i was truLy wrong..
..it was a day before dapartmentals when he told me this "naa qy e.storya, pero dili xa karon kay kahiabw q masakitan kah".. 
..when i got home, i act so strange, i coudn't rid from my mind the words coming from his mouth, i was so eager to know what he was telling me but i should have separate my personal life from my studies, so i continue studying..
..later after taking the exam, i pass the departmentals.. i should be happy that time but i can sense things are going wrong.. but i tried to be owkay and happy in front of him..
..we continue our daily routines, as if nothing happens.. i went home and so does he..
..and another day comes he texted me gud morning but there was no i love you which i am not used to, i thought he just forgot to type it so it was owkay...
..before going home, i went to sto. nino to pray and to thank.. i prayed this one "Lord, help us to overcome the problems that we encounter in our relationship. i hope Lord that we'll continue loving each other and sana magdugay pamie"... i texted him that i had this prayer, he told me, i shouldn't be praying this, i should be praying for myself...
..i got home, i texted him..
..i asked him what was he really wants to say to me the other day..
..he replied, saying i should be telling you this in personal but i really can't wait, i forced him to say kay dili q mahimutang, i thought he would tell me "nasasakal naq nimu"... 
but it was more than what i expected..
..it was on march 14, 2010 4pm when he texted me this lines "i dont feel the same of what u felt towards me... kung sa kanta pa I DONT LOVE YOU LIKE I LOVE YOU YESTERDAY"..
..my first reaction was speechless, of course, i didn't expect him to say those words..
..i didn't reply for almost an hour, i kept on thinking, why is this happening to me, he said he doesn't love me.. what should i do? i remeber the good memories we had. i remember the tiimes when he told me i love you 20 times.. is he just pretending that he lloves me?. am i just dreaming for four months that he had love me?.. memories keep coming back.. i was the only one in the house and i dont know what to do, i have no one to share that time...
..few minutes after, i replied, saying "what do you want to happen?"..
.. he replied " i tried to bing back the love i had for you, but it isn't working."
..all i can say is whaaattt?!!!!
..and there it goes exchanging words happen..
..my bed is bathed with tears, i even made a video of myself crying my heart out..
..so a day pass with so much crying..
..i have no one to share with so i share it in FB..
..seconds, minutes, hours that pass i was not in my "katinuan"... i dont know what i'm doing..
..after hearing those hurtful words, oh god, i really dont know what to do, all i can do is to cry and cry and cry and cry again and again.. 
..march 15, 2010, 7-8pm.. when he finally ends our realtionship.. he told me to leave him.. 
..i texted him "we can still save our realationhp, we could still patch things up, we can start all over again"
..he replied "no, we can't! we already broke up!..
..and boom, i cried and cried and cried all over again.. 
..the day after, we saw each other, a tear fall from my eyes when i saw him.. 
..nag tan.aw q niya, he was so owkay, he looks like he isn't affected, i was jjust the only one suffering from our break up.. 
..and nag koug mie, we had lunch, march 16, 2010, 11-12 pm.. i asked him to hug me, and so iyang g.buhat, i cried in front of him.. i super cried, i begged him not to leave me, not to break up with me, not to hurt me, i know this is stupid but i am just in love, fighting for my feelings.. he just told me this "ayaw nah".. that's aLL.. and bang boom.. wala na.. nag laho ang lahat..
..days pass by but for me it was years..
..from march 14- 18, sleepless nights, teary eyes, out of my mind.. i even tried makig balik for almost 3 times but he turned it down... 
..continue with life wihtout him, tried to move on but oh no, i really can't do it.
..On march 24, 2010, supossedly our 5th monthsary i invited him to lunch with me.. There laroy.2 xa sm.. nag koug mie nga we're just friends and uLi..
..pag.uLi i realized, i shoudn't be loving him, i can see through his eyes that he is enjoying his life without me while here i am suffering the heartache the he had given me...

..yeah, tell me i'm obessesd but you really can't blame me, im just a person who truLy loves my ex.. :((

now, is apriL 1, 2010, 12:39 am... wala na qy balita niya.. he never texted me, he never chats with me, he ignored my texts.. i wonder if nag uxna cya karon, kumuxtah na kaha xa.. hahaizt... i just miss him soo much, keep on remembering those memories we had.. only to find out is cya wala g.mingaw naq, wa naq nasulod xa iya mind.. he's happy with his life na karon.. while aq, i keep on thinking about him.. haizt!,, ka unfair jud xa life uie!.. 

i gues that's was all about my love story.. :D