8:46 AM
Friday, August 24, 2012
7 Cardinal Rules in Life
1. Make peace with your past so it doesn't spoil your present. Your past does not define your future- you actions and beliefs do.2.What others think of you is none of your business. It's how much you value yourself and how important you think you are.3. Time heals almost everything, give time, time.Pain will be less hurting. Scars make us who we are; they explain our life and why we are the way we are. They challenge us and force us to be stronger.4. No one is the reason for your own happiness, except you yourself. Waste no time and effort searching for peace and contentment and joy in the world outside.5. Don't compare your life with others'. you have no idea what their journey is all about. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's. we would grab ours back as fast as we could.6. Stop thinking too much, it's alright no to know all the answers. Sometime there is not answer, not going to be any answer, never has been answer. That's the answer! Just accept it, move one, NEXT!7. Smile, you don't own all the problems in the world. A smile can brighten the darkest day and make life more beautiful. It is a potential curve to turn a life around and set everything straight.
6:34 PM
Sunday, May 13, 2012
REALIZATIONS of BEING TWENTY - SOMETHING
They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis." It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.
You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you don't recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.
You look at your job... and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you.
Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn't. One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.
You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you know that you aren't a bad person. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic.
You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision. You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself... and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!
What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.
7:08 PM
Saturday, April 28, 2012
UPDATES on Love and Life 4.29.12
So hi, Hello! Since a friend of mine, is also starting to make her new blog account, I realized I should make an update with mine too. So yeah, I just did. HAHA XD Last post was my love story, exactly 2 years ago. Now is a different me, has different view on love and life. To cut it short, I have this new love but we're in a coma right now. Coma means we are in a process of solving some issues. But believe it or not, I'm in love. Gotta post my love story, soon if I can have the feeling of posting it. HAHA XD So this post, is all about updates, update on my life and love. UPDATES? Well, I'm in my 3rd year of Accountancy at USJ-R, I'm happy, I've got this huge problems
on my family,
on my love, on my studies but I know all of these will be solved by Gods will.
On Love, I'm currently having my 6th and hoping to be my last boyfriend in my life. I'm not so proud of saying the number 6, but it's reality. Haha. We're going on 5 months.
On Family, naaah, just boyfriend issues. Don't wanna talk about it, sahrey.
On studies, I've got this problem on my major, 'm havin a hard time to reach the cut off. But we should think postive that we can do it. Smile! :) So today, I'm in my room got no things to do. Bored! And that would be all. By the way, that picture above was taken yesterday coz I've got my hair done at Urban Salon and now I'm purdoy. Damn!
Good Bye! Till next post. Much Love < 3
6:44 PM
A 2009 Second Semester Love Affair
(Note: Wrong Grammars are there! Pa.senxa na, I was crying when I wrote this.)
This was the onLy guy that i have loved in my whole life.. unfortunateLy, ending wasn't soo good.. memories keep coming back.. :(( i know i would love him throughout the years and that's for sure!.. DRAMA!
to summarize everything:
..it was just a 2nd sem LOVE affair..
..it was on october 24, 2009 that we've planned to make our relationship officiaL..
..after two months i've realized i should love this guy with my whole heart 'coz he let me feel my real worth and true love for me..
..but when the month of MARCH comes, he acts so coLd, he isn't the same from yesterday, i thought it was just an ordinary misunderstanding but i was truLy wrong..
..it was a day before dapartmentals when he told me this "naa qy e.storya, pero dili xa karon kay kahiabw q masakitan kah"..
..when i got home, i act so strange, i coudn't rid from my mind the words coming from his mouth, i was so eager to know what he was telling me but i should have separate my personal life from my studies, so i continue studying..
..later after taking the exam, i pass the departmentals.. i should be happy that time but i can sense things are going wrong.. but i tried to be owkay and happy in front of him..
..we continue our daily routines, as if nothing happens.. i went home and so does he..
..and another day comes he texted me gud morning but there was no i love you which i am not used to, i thought he just forgot to type it so it was owkay...
..before going home, i went to sto. nino to pray and to thank.. i prayed this one "Lord, help us to overcome the problems that we encounter in our relationship. i hope Lord that we'll continue loving each other and sana magdugay pamie"... i texted him that i had this prayer, he told me, i shouldn't be praying this, i should be praying for myself...
..i got home, i texted him..
..i asked him what was he really wants to say to me the other day..
..he replied, saying i should be telling you this in personal but i really can't wait, i forced him to say kay dili q mahimutang, i thought he would tell me "nasasakal naq nimu"...
but it was more than what i expected..
..it was on march 14, 2010 4pm when he texted me this lines "i dont feel the same of what u felt towards me... kung sa kanta pa I DONT LOVE YOU LIKE I LOVE YOU YESTERDAY"..
..my first reaction was speechless, of course, i didn't expect him to say those words..
..i didn't reply for almost an hour, i kept on thinking, why is this happening to me, he said he doesn't love me.. what should i do? i remeber the good memories we had. i remember the tiimes when he told me i love you 20 times.. is he just pretending that he lloves me?. am i just dreaming for four months that he had love me?.. memories keep coming back.. i was the only one in the house and i dont know what to do, i have no one to share that time...
..few minutes after, i replied, saying "what do you want to happen?"..
.. he replied " i tried to bing back the love i had for you, but it isn't working."
..all i can say is whaaattt?!!!!
..and there it goes exchanging words happen..
..my bed is bathed with tears, i even made a video of myself crying my heart out..
..so a day pass with so much crying..
..i have no one to share with so i share it in FB..
..seconds, minutes, hours that pass i was not in my "katinuan"... i dont know what i'm doing..
..after hearing those hurtful words, oh god, i really dont know what to do, all i can do is to cry and cry and cry and cry again and again..
..march 15, 2010, 7-8pm.. when he finally ends our realtionship.. he told me to leave him..
..i texted him "we can still save our realationhp, we could still patch things up, we can start all over again"
..he replied "no, we can't! we already broke up!..
..and boom, i cried and cried and cried all over again..
..the day after, we saw each other, a tear fall from my eyes when i saw him..
..nag tan.aw q niya, he was so owkay, he looks like he isn't affected, i was jjust the only one suffering from our break up..
..and nag koug mie, we had lunch, march 16, 2010, 11-12 pm.. i asked him to hug me, and so iyang g.buhat, i cried in front of him.. i super cried, i begged him not to leave me, not to break up with me, not to hurt me, i know this is stupid but i am just in love, fighting for my feelings.. he just told me this "ayaw nah".. that's aLL.. and bang boom.. wala na.. nag laho ang lahat..
..days pass by but for me it was years..
..from march 14- 18, sleepless nights, teary eyes, out of my mind.. i even tried makig balik for almost 3 times but he turned it down...
..continue with life wihtout him, tried to move on but oh no, i really can't do it.
..On march 24, 2010, supossedly our 5th monthsary i invited him to lunch with me.. There laroy.2 xa sm.. nag koug mie nga we're just friends and uLi..
..pag.uLi i realized, i shoudn't be loving him, i can see through his eyes that he is enjoying his life without me while here i am suffering the heartache the he had given me...
..yeah, tell me i'm obessesd but you really can't blame me, im just a person who truLy loves my ex.. :((
now, is apriL 1, 2010, 12:39 am... wala na qy balita niya.. he never texted me, he never chats with me, he ignored my texts.. i wonder if nag uxna cya karon, kumuxtah na kaha xa.. hahaizt... i just miss him soo much, keep on remembering those memories we had.. only to find out is cya wala g.mingaw naq, wa naq nasulod xa iya mind.. he's happy with his life na karon.. while aq, i keep on thinking about him.. haizt!,, ka unfair jud xa life uie!..
i gues that's was all about my love story.. :D
10:28 PM
Sunday, November 7, 2010
Oh my!.. after a very long time, at last checked my blog account. so far. my last post was on february 4 of this year. but believe it or not, a lot of tragedies have happened to me. yeah, i call it tragedies because most of it wasn't soo good at all.
but let us see first the brighter side, today is Monday, Nov. 8, 2010 2:45 pm and im in my KB1 class, i cant access facebook so luckily, ive checked this. good thing, right?
As i opened this blog, which i havent opened for almost 9 months. I click on the profile tab, and one thing, i notice is that i already turn a year older and im also in my 2nd year 2nd sem. another is that my status, but now back to single. I'll post another, concerning about this, i will post a very detailed story about it. next is that my sister already marry her fiancee so that means im the only single and i live in the house with my parents, no sisters anymore which leaves me being happy and sad on the other side. We'll talking about wishlist, its all the same none of them were realized and granted but i am still hoping! :)
And here it goes, i clicked on the tag tab and i was like WHOAAAA! to the last comment.. oh my that was a long time ago, but ill be posting the story later.
So i guess, this is all for now. still in my KB1 class! :)
keep posted with my shocking story. i'll be posting it tonight! :)
4:11 AM
Thursday, February 4, 2010
According to you
Im stupid
Im useless
I cant do anything right
According to you
Im difficult
hard to please
forever changing my mind
Im a mess in a dress
cant show up on time
even if it would save my life
According to you, according to you
But according to him
Im beautiful
incredible
he cant get me out of his head
According to him
Im funny
irresistable
everything he ever wanted
Everything is opposite
I dont feel like stopping it
so baby tell what i got to lose
Hes into me for everything Im not according to you
According to you
Im boring
Im moody
and you cant take me any place
According to you
I suck at telling jokes cause I always give it away
Im the girl with the worst attention span
youre the boy who puts up with that
According to you, according to you
But according to him
Im beautiful
incredible
he cant get me out of his head
According to him
Im funny
irresistable
everything he ever wanted
Everything is opposite
I dont feel like stopping it
so baby tell what i got to lose
Hes into me for everything Im not
according to you
I need to feel appreciated
like Im not hated. oh no
Why cant you see me through his eyes?
Its too bad your making me decide.
But according to me
youre stupid
youre useless
you cant do anything right
But according to him
Im beautiful
incredible
he cant get me out of his head
According to him
Im funny
irresistable
everything he ever wanted
Everything is opposite
I dont feel like stopping it
baby tell what i got to lose
Hes into me for everything Im not
according to you
you you
according to you
you you
According to you
Im stupid
Im useless
I cant do anything right.
7:26 PM
Sunday, October 25, 2009
Why am I so afraid?
Is it my past,
......which has kept me from moving on?
Is it the fear
.......that no one will love me back?
Is it the fear
.......that something will go wrong again?
Is it the fear
.........that I'll be hurt again?
The fear that keeps me from being able
to love is one in which I can not describe
I hope you'll be the one I've been looking for
Yet I don't want to give in to the desire that keeps me alive
I'm afraid to love, yes, it's true
But I can not help but say this, even with this fear
I think I'm falling in love again...
_+jheyn.jorge+_
6:36 PM
"CALLING YOU"
blue october
Theres something that i cant quite explain
i'm so in love with you
youll never take that away
and if i said a hundred times before
expect a thousand more
you never take that away
well expect me to be
calling you to see
if you're ok when i'm not around
asking if you love me
i love the way you make it sound
calling you to see
do i try too hard to make you smile
to make a smile
and i will be calling you to see
if you're sleepin are you dreamin
if you're dreamin are you dreamin of me
i cant believe
you actually picked...me
i thought that the world had lost its sway
(its so hard sometimes)
then i fell in love with you
(then came you)
and you took that way
(its not so difficult)
you take away the old
show me the new
and i feel like i can fly
when i stand next to you
so what if on this phone
a hundred miles from home
i take the words you gave
and send them back to you
i only want to see
if you're ok when i'm not around
asking if you love me
i love the way you make it sound
calling you to see
do i try too hard to make you smile
to make a smile
and i will be calling you to see
if you're sleepin are you dreamin
if you're dreamin are you dreamin of me
i cant believe
you actually picked...me
well i will be calling you to see
if you're sleepin are you dreamin
if you're dreamin are you dreamin of me
i cant believe
you actually picked...me
i will be calling you to see
if you're sleepin are you dreamin
if you're dreamin are you dreamin of me
i cant believe
you actually picked...me
2:19 AM
Thursday, July 30, 2009
..just writing what i felt..
..-hai der?.. how r yah?.. i've got nothing to do, that's why i decided tow rite something now!..
..know what?.. this saturday august 1 will be our acquaintance party,
but guess what? im not even ready yet!.. i already bought my dress but im really not sure if it's nice!.. just look at the picture!.. what do you think? do i look gorgeous?, is this dress fits me weLL?.. or it is just sooo
simple for a party?.. i've got too many questions in my mind!.. please help me frens!!.. i badly need your comments now!.. :-(( Please?..
..another problem is, the earrings?.. i was planning to wear those dangling long earrings?, does it for my dress?,, what do you think?,.. i stiLL dont have it but i borrowed earrings from filsan, but i dont think if its nice!.. just wish me luck!.. aheheh!..
..next problem is for my hairstyle and make up.. what hairstyle does it fit for mee?.. i was to planning to make my hair curly.. but the problem is where i borrow curLer?... my friends dont have it!.. u know what?.. right now, im curling my hair with the use of curlers.. just hoping if it works and if it's nice!.. i've got many problems for this party!.. super!..
.and about the make up? i will do the make up coz its what i want but i want those sparkling dusts for my body to look it nice and shimmerring!.. right?.. ahhehe...
..next is my bag?.. i was planning to have the white bag i have!.. but it's too small.. where should i put my camera?.. i should bring the camera!.. but no choice i have no other bags!..
..On saturday morning, i will go to a parlor to have a manicure and to thread my kilay!.. aheheh!.. aron ma limpyu naq tanan!.. aheheh!.. i will also but spraynet and brush for the make ups!..
..wish me luck to look good in the acquaintance party!.. break a leg to me!.. woohoo!..
AJA! AJA! AJA!
6:11 PM
Saturday, July 25, 2009
..Mah nEw SonY CameRa..
Just yesterday, JuLy 25, 2009!.. i received a
new Sony CAmera!.. from my Uncle Philbert!..
i was really really that i got my own personal
camera at last!.. it was really my dream to
have a sony camera!..
i have nothing more else to say but thank
you uncle!..
5:55 AM
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
..after 4 years, she left us..
but now she's back!..
hello?,, im back again!.. writing again the hapennings in my life that you didnt know yet!.. All i can say is CYNTH is back in the philipiines, ready to bond with us again after 4 years... i was the first one who knew that cynth was already here because she chats with me, 2 days after she came here!..i was really shocked when someone called my name outside the house, then i peep through the window to see, who is it!,., i was really astonish when i found out that it was our classmte in elementary, CYNTH, so i hurriedly went down, to greet and talk with cynth!.. at first i was really spechless when i saw her, there a lot of things t
hat changed her, especially her personality and physical appearance,, Mas ni bus.ok cya..
super!.. she gained a lot og weight for the 4 years of her stay in california!.. although she gains weight, but, she still looks good, her body suits her the best!.. i like her now than we were used to be children during old times.. ehhhehe!..
So, right after CWTS on July 17
, 2009, i directlt
went to SWU together with marilou, kisha, and marge to celebrate cynth's come back!.. heheeh!.. we did went to Da Vinci's Pizza. I'm with my Elementary friends, who are Cynth, kisha, carl, marge, macy, marilou, jaja, bokie, nino, aristotle, jade and hamadi!.. we really had fun there and took a lot of pictures with cynth!.. hehehe!.. we talked about our unforgettable moments in elementary. we laughed a lot reminiscing those funny stuffs.. heheeh!.. we also talked about on what will be happening the day after because cynth want to bring us to villa teresita, so nag sabot pami gamay!.. then after that we went home and of corz took cynth home too!..
The day after eating da vinci, we went to villa teresita early in the afternoon!!.. hehehe!.. wid cynth again!.. she bought all da food and she also paid all the expenses in villa!.. aheheheh!.. yahoo!.. at least free!.. so far, lingaw pud xa uie!.. aheheh!..
6:45 AM
Saturday, July 11, 2009
..THE LATEST.. sooo far!,,,
hi?.. im back again!,,, it's been 1 month and a half since i wrote my latest blog!... but now it's June 12, 2009, sunday!... for that 1 month, a lot of things happend to me that i didnt write it in mah mini blog (diary)!..
So lets start from my 1st day of school in USJR (you is jay are).. as i walk toward my new school, i felt that i should really start a new life, get back from zero, from nothing.. ala kaila, ala tanan!.. so in result, i did find new friends, adopt a new system of environment of mah new skuL and i learned to adjust everything, dali ra jud kaau!.. then 2morow man uniform naq!.. ehehhe!.. dbuh, i wrote nah i did find new friends,
they are Joed Mabala, from usjr pud!.. bright xa super!.. hehe!... den boutan pa jud!.. lucky keo q nga nagka frens mie!.. the 2nd was is Filsan Galan, from CIC.. tabi.an ka.au super!.. hehe!.. bright pud uie!.. magka cnabot mi!.. eheheh!.. i really tahnk God for blessing me new and gifted friends that i will now cherish.. heheh!.. (basta ma mention ang name sa laing taw xa aqng Blog / diary kay mga VIP jud na cla xa lyp naq!, hehe)... -tino.ud na xa)
kana lang xa uie!.. uki an cguro nah!.. pero na.a paq e.tel, 2morow na cguro uie!.. i feel sick amn gud karon!.. i'll take a rest xa for a while!..
my next post will be entitled "after 4 yrs, she left us!. but now she's back" guess kung kinxa?,, ehheeh!.. ang maka guess kay na.ay reward!.. eheheh!..
5:20 AM
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
---..my 1st year anniversary in this BLOG!----
.....Just a while ago, i was watching May Bukas Pa, when i remembered something,,,,,,,, that today was also the same day when i wrote my first post in this blog... if you'll just scroll down, and see the last part, thats it!,,, I wrote that a year ago, year 2008, to be specific.. it was all about my CAT summer training, so as of now, im doing the same thing, but the only difference is, I was the one who is teaching them coz last year, i was just a newbie, but now im an officer and a tactical officer as well,,... right now im really tired, coz even though im done with this, i still went to school, wake up early and do the things that i've hated in my whole life!..
..Right now, i am really really tired.. when i got home from the training, i was not able to change my clothes, even if i stink, i smell bad.. i just go tobed and find a comfortable position and then i fell asleep... i was really asleep just like a dead meat... that was what my mother says when she entered my room!..
..anyways it was just their 2nd day of training, they started on May 4, 2009... and i forgot to tell you that i have the money which is only for CAT thingy so i have to go their everyday!.. ehheeh!..
but i really enjoyed their company just dont mind sa mga ka kapoy and all!.. eheheehhe!..
..cge till here!.. that is all i can say!.. heheh!.. Maybe, i can write my next entry as soon as possible, coz there is happening in my life right now that this BLOG doesnt know!.. ahahah!.. wait for it!.. eheh!.. it will gonna be an interesting story!..
..today is MAY 5, 2009...
9:32 AM
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
---MY GRADUATION FEVER---
It is that time again - graduation fever is in the air! There is a buzz all around as so many young students, bubbling with enthusiasm, are getting ready to welcome a new phase of their life. High school graduation is indeed, a milestone for any student. It is the time when, head held high, the high school student steps up on the stage to receive his high school graduation diploma amidst happy applause from the crowd.
High school graduation brings with it so many new decisions. What is next? That is a question on the mind of all high school graduates. Graduating from high school is something that every student dreams of from the time that they begin school. It’s a huge event and it should be shared with everyone who has made this day possible - just about everyone. Church pastors, past teachers, friends, family and anybody else who has been a part of the graduate’s life will probably be interested in knowing that this major milestone has been reached. For this, high school graduation announcements are an essential part of the graduating process.
High school graduation time brings a mix of feelings and decisions. But before you step out into the world to face the many challenges coming with college, you certainly should enjoy your high school graduation celebrations.
9:18 AM
Saturday, April 25, 2009
..My Passion Lies with Dance..
Dancing has been a huge learning experience for me and the influence it has had on my life, I will never forget. I've learned teamwork as well as leadership, and for countless numbers of hours for 3 years I have spent my days devoting myself to practicing, perfecting and an open-mind. To me, dance is more than just a beautiful art form. Dance perfecting and an open-mind. To me, dance is more than just a beautiful art form. Dance beautiful, exciting and inspiring. I can never get bored with it because there is always room to improve. There can always be more beats, higher jumps and better placement, among other things. I am showing the world me, and who I am when I dance. Dancing is power, a prayer, it gives a sense of life.
As a member of a competitive dance team, I understand the importance of teamwork and leadership. I have come to realize that a team uses cooperative effort to achieve a common goal. This often requires personal sacrifice. When dancing with other people, one must respect the value of teamwork, not only amongst fellow dancers, but with coaches and teachers as well. Each and every practice we worked collaboratively dedicated and devoted to our ambition. Our teacher would help us develop our abilities with elite leadership. Likewise, leadership is necessary to ensure that a team's accomplishments…
...ACCOMPLISHMENTS...
1. SWU Siglakas Cheerdance Competition (HS Dept.) *Aznar Coliseum* August 2006 (won the 2nd prize. competing with other colleges in SWU, my first dance ever)
2. Milo CheerDance Competition *Abellana Sports Complex* September 2006
3. Cesafi CheerDance Competition *Cebu Coliseum UC* December 2, 2008 (won the 2nd prize, competes with USC cheerdance)
4. Yugyugan Modern Dance Competition *Aznar Coliseum* December 11, 2008 (won the 3rd prize competing with different colleges)
5. Different intermission numbers as part of the COBRAS in SWU such as Closer, right now nana, single ladies and bleeding love...
*it was such a remarkably experience to have those list of dance numbers,
i dont think so, if i can have that in college*
JHEYN JORGE AMASA
8:55 AM
..Have FUN at FIESTAS in Minglanilla...
Since it's summer and i have nothing to do in the house, i just sit, eat, sleep, surf the net and wala nah!.. syaro d q mutambok.. hahah!.. so i decided to go with my sisters since they are planning to go to fiesta of Minlanilla, the hometown of my Uncle philbert, the husband of mah 1st sister!.. so at exactly 1 pm we gather at CTS, when all are already there, we decided to ride a v-hire that will take us to minglanilla, i was shocked when the fare is P30.. last time i rode a v-hire that was only P15 but now its already times 2... ehheh!.. tungod lageh na sa Global economic crisis which is the main topic in our Magazine, the voice junior quill, so too much for that... we arrived at an exact time also, for the second time around i was there, so i was not so hiya.2 effect coz they already knew who i am.. so when we arrived we did eat a lot, were to there to have fiesta and speaking of fiesta, paklaz jud nah!.. busog au q woie!.. heheh... then chika.2 effect and na.abtan nlng mi gabi.e... and without knowing, kuya noel the BF of mah sister joann invited us to their house in Pardo coz ma.agi.an ra man gud!. then nanghapit jud mi, there we took our dinner, i didnt ate a lot, coz busog pa ka.au q, fresh from fiesta gud!.. and dili jud mawagtang ang chika.2.. nah!.. grabeh nga chika.2 den ka.apilan pa jud ug inom.. nah!.. its almost 11 pm when we decided to go home!.. so till here nlng!.. see you in the next happening in mah life!.. haizt!.. diary.2.. tsar!..
April 25, 2008, 12:30A.M..
